JUST A DREAM -3-

        After 3 consecutive nights without him, finally he had returned last night to me. I cant really explain what im feeling right now. Its totally a mixed of emotion kind of thing. Happy-coz hes back, sad - coz somehow it was my fault why he had to leave, surprise- coz I hadn't expected him to come back, and finally Longing- longing to see him again tonight.

       

        We were in a party. Maybe it’s a birthday party, im not so sure. Well, there were many people in the house tonight, people close to our age. An all teens’ party. We were both aware of each other’s presence. We even meet each other’s eyes. I really wanted to hug him right now. To be close to him and to talk to him now that he’s here. But he IGNORED me. I was so confuse of he’s sudden change of treatment towards me. And I don’t want to be the one who keeps following him around. No I wont. Im a girl you know. Boys are the puppies and we’re the masters. Hmmp.. so, I IGNORED him too.      

        

          It was already late in the night and we decided to have a sleep-over party. Gender separation of course. But my friends notice our awkwardness to each other. (me and mr. dreamboy). They thought that we were having a fight coz we stayed out of each other’s way. And they decided to save a room just for the two of us.

        

        All I can say is awkward. We slept on the bed but with a distance of 100 km. from each other. We turn our backs from each other and face to the wall. I really hated what has come between us. I don’t even know what he’s problem is. And at this situation, I must be the one who is angry at him and not the other way around coz he was the one who left me behind.  But I cant take it anymore. So, I took a deep breath and change to a sitting position facing him. I told him we have to settle this thing out. I asked him why does he acts this way. I asked him so many questions which I cant remember now. All he said is that “kaw naman kasi”.

      Okay, so it was my fault now. I really want to argue that but I don’t want to have another fight with him again. Its too hard and painful. So, I apologized to him and told him it will never happen again. And then he grab me and hug me so tightly.